Sunday, September 25, 2011

Goodbye My Sweet Mocha (1996-2011)



I am crying as I write this post. Mocha's beautiful soul went to kitty Heaven on Saturday morning. After a two year battle with IBD, she gave up her fight. She had such tenacity and stubbornness about life that she truly was my other half since I am the same. It's hard to put into words what she brought into my life. She saw so many transitions of my own life and followed me wherever my road went and stood by my side without a single word of judgment. She only gave me love and acceptance. She was a part of my soul.

I was so fortunate to have her come into my life at 7 weeks old and to think that I almost turned her away. God had a plan when he gave me that little push to take her in even after I had picked another kitten out to take home with me. When that young pet store attendant begged me to take the screaming ball of fur because no one else would, it broke my heart. The words "no one else will take her" was the deciding factor for me. So, fleas and all, I brought her home to my little studio apartment that I had after my divorce and we bonded from that moment on.

No words can explain what it feels like to lose one of our fur babies. They don't judge, they don't hurt purposefully and all they want from us is love and to be taken care of. I did the best I could as her mother and I only pray she is now in a field of all the food she wants and all the furry friends to play with.

I love you, Mocha. There will always be a hole in my heart that can never be filled with the love that you gave me. It will take me a very long time to get used to not doing the things I do when I see you....to not hear that little meow saying hello to me and especially to no longer feel you kneading on my stomach for your own comfort. It will be hard but I hear time heals all wounds so until it does, I will hold your memories in my heart now and forever.

Rest in peace my sweet baby.

26 comments:

Elaine said...

I am so sorry Michelle. I know how much you loved your sweet girl. Every time I read a post like yours I cry too. Our animals are like children to us. We spoil them and love them and it should be that way.

She was so lucky you took her home. She could not have had a better mom or a nicer life. You certainly gave her the best home possible.

I hope your sad thoughts will soon be replaced by all your happy membories of Mocha.

Sara's Sweet Surprise said...

Michelle~I felt the need to stop by and ard now I know why...the flood gates have opened. You know my heart shares your pain. I will be by again...after I can compose myself.
Until then...please know you are in my heart.
With love & support,
Sara

Anya said...

OMG
Michelle

this is very sad news :(
I don't know what to say !!
it makes me also sad.
We know each other for three years
and we loved Mocha also very much.

I'm also afraif if Kareltje would go
he is my first cat
I can't believe he will also go once :(

I wish i could give you a real hug
And Quincy & Emma will be looking for Mocha :(

Mocha can be happy that she had such a sweet CatMommy like you Michelle :-)

I send you love and hugs

Unknown said...

omg Michelle so saddddddddddd but happy she is at a happy place now.

Neabear said...

I am so sad to hear of your loss Michelle...I hope that you will be comforted when you most need it. And yes time will heal, but in its own time. Take care my friend.

~Linnea

Tracey said...

Oh,Michelle, I am so sorry for your loss. I know how much Mocha ment to you and how you posted all the wonderful moments the two of you had together. We all knew she was a very special kitty...You are a great mom to all your fur babies, and she was a very lucky kitty to have had someone like you in her life. I think you two complimented each other's lives and brought much joy and happiness to both of you. Prayers to you my friend and know I'm thinking about you..kisses to the rest of your kids!! I know they'll miss her too!

Een sneller kloppend hart said...

Oh this is so sad you've lost your wonderful friend Mocha...
We've lost some sweet cats too and they are always in my mind...cats are true friends.
I wish you al the best and strength to deal with your loss..

Huggs, Veronique

Erin said...

I'm so sorry. My pets are my children. I have no doubt you were a wonderful mother to Mocha.

Erin

Randi Troxell said...

oh honey..
i'm all teary now, i am so so sorry.. i'll be thinking of you.. and the rest of your kitty babes too... so sorry..

Cynthia's Cottage Design said...

I'm so sorry Michelle! I know how you feel , I just lost my wonderful Holly after 15 years of having her bless my life. There's never any words that fit perfectly, but know she is looking down on you and she's just as grateful that you were chosen for her too!

My thoughts are with you and hugs, Cynthia xo

Seawashed said...

Michelle I am so sorry for your loss. Mocha lived a long life even with her health problems. I cannot imagine your aching heart right now. Know that I am thinking of you and praying God comforts you in this time of sorrow. Love Kerrie

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry, Michelle. I know you gave Mocha the best possible life here on this earth.She was blessed to have you as a Mom.

Conversations with the Muses said...

I am so very sorry, I am crying to for you and for me and the babies I have lost. They are beyond precious,
I send you peace and love,
Tricia

C-ingspots said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss...I know exactly how much it hurts when we lose our beloved animal friends. So sorry. :(

Teresa Robeson said...

Oh my dear, I am so very sad for your loss. You and Mocha were lucky to have had each other. This brings back a lot of pain for me too as I'm nearing the 1 year anniversary of the death of my pup (a mere 4 years old when she died). Big hugs!

Christine said...

My dearest Michelle, my heart broke when I stopped by and read this post. I can only send you big hugs. Huge hugs. I've had six Siberian Huskies (all rescues) and they are a unique breed...lol. And I've lost each one after a good 15-16 years, so I know the pain very well and have no answers. Sorry. Life will lead you where you need to go and Mocha will ALWAYS be with you...as are all my Sibs. My heart goes out to you and again, sending lots of hugs your way my dear!

Lindsey said...

My heart is hugging your's this morning!!!!! I have huge tears in my eyes as I drink my coffee. Much love friend! Little Mocha will be missed!

Debbie said...

Michelle...My heart goes out to you my friend. I just put my beloved 10 year old Jack Russell down a couple months ago and I was sick about it. I still miss him. Take comfort in knowing you probably saved that sweet baby's life and in doing that, gave her the absolute best life she could have had! You adored her and I am sure she adored you. You were a wonderful parent. Their lives are just too short. Mocha's spirit lives on and I am sure she's with you. Hugs...Debbie

Cat with a Garden said...

Oh Michelle, we just saw... Our little hearts are aching for your loss and mom's eyes are filled with tears too. May sweet Mocha rest in Peace now. She had a long and very happy life with you.
Many noselicks,
Siena & Chilli

Rue said...

Michelle - I'm sorry it's taken me so long to see this post. I'm so sorry for your loss. Anyone who has lost a furry family member can relate to your story and pain. You were blessed to have Mocha for so many years (although they are never enough.)

So many hugs to you.

Jen

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